Mark Gerardot

Unimaginably thrust into the media spotlight after a life-altering personal tragedy in 2018, Mark Gerardot’s obsessive two-year search to understand the bewildering secret life that led his wife to kill and to come to terms with his grief and remorse for his own actions is told in his debut book, Irreparable - Three Lives. Two Deaths. One Story that Has to Be Told. Determined to share the sad but true story of a 24-year marriage, the events that led up to the tragedy and the lessons he has learned since, Gerardot hopes his story will help others who find themselves at a crossroads in a troubled marriage or relationship.


The book and this blog have been a cathartic day-by-day process of learning and self-reflection, without which I don't know if I would be alive. For two years now, I have suffered greatly, struggling with my own depression and suicidal thoughts. But I press on, knowing I have to, to somehow make up for the loss of two lives and the promises they offered. 

— Mark Gerardot